Masayume

 Bismillah.

This week indicates the start of my second sem in my foundation year. There'll be one more sem left until I'll start my degree. 

This sem, I think, would be SUPER HECTIC because I'm taking all the core subjects. Physics I, Chemistry I, Mathematics I and Proficiency English. I loveee theseee subjects but i swear to God that learning chem maths and phys in English is just super hard :P  Well I took 'em in Bahasa Melayu back during SPM, therefore tryna convert 'em all the phrases and names in English is gonna took me a while to get used to it.

For this sem also, I could say I was alone. Well you don't really get to know any of your classmates if the classes are conducted fully online ya know. Wafiy and Tiyah aren't in my class this year. And fortunately Lisa's still with me in the same class. But we got separated during Math nested group :'( she's in another group and I'm so sadd. 

It's just that, I really got anxious meeting new people yaknow. It doesn't happen to me before this. I mean, I used to get sooo excited meeting people. Idk what happen to me. I think I had a breakdown. My spirit got lost somewhere and I couldn't find it 

Funny thing is, I'm in the same nested group with Z. Ya know, the one I used to have a crush on. Tbh I still do like him but I don't care hahaa. 

I really want to avoid being in the same group with him, but things happen. All the other groups are full and I was left with no choice.

As we expected, this sem is conducted fully online. Right now, I'm back at my home. The internet's not so good because of some development being made. That's what the TM guy said. So i bought my own data. I never bought weekly data before, so it feels different.

I met Nad days ago. She went to terengganu with her family. We hang out from morning till late evening. It was fun. She drove the car like crazzzyyyy. 

Next day spent time with Ain Sk and Yana. We went to my school to pick up my SPM certificate. Then went to KTCC. Fun times. Money flowed like water ahaha.

Two days ago, I decided to try joining the class at the library. Good internet connection, really. Ain Meru was there too. Then Ain Sk picked me up and I met Paah and Yana and we went to.,... KTCC again. Ate at Nasken Coffee. Good times.

I haven't been doing anything much this year. Just same old me.

Bismillah.

 Bismillah.

Nik (my rumet)'s birthday was yesterday, on 30th November. Officially 18, huh?

I haven't told you about her, right? Well, she was the schoolmate of Z and Syu. Syu lepak at our room everyday, and she was hella fun kinda girl. Her roommate went home, so she often come to our room.

I don't really know what to talk about Nik, but she was SOOO NICE. Her mummy was nice, and she has a cat named JJ. JJ doesn't come home for days now, and this is the first time he did that. Yesterday, Nik videocalled her mummy and i heard her crying because of JJ.

If I am to be honest, the worst part of me is that i am so not good at listening. or comforting people. I'm not a good listener.

Yesterday night, Nik almost went to bed early. She said that was because she ate medicine. 

My housemates and I actually planned a little celebration for her. We wanted it to be a surprise, so we didn't talk about it. We bought a Lotus Biscoff cake (i always wanted to try this cake but it was too price. Nik once said she wanted it too) and two medium sized pizzas and a bottle of pepsi. (i don't really drink carbonated drink, but sokay this one is a pass).

What we planned was, we would wait at the table down at the ground below. Then at 12 o'clock, i would whatsapp Nik.

Happy birthday Nik :)

Tengok kat bawah.

If Nik peeked through the window besides her study desk, she would see us.

We wanted to celebrate outside of the house because we want to take pictures. During Mira's birthday celebration before this, we celebrated it in the house and yeah, we didn't take any pictures and that was so sad :'(

But uh we found out Nik's schoolmates wanted to celebrate it too. And at the table down there, too. 

We all are shy shy cat girls, therefore we didn't want to celebrate it together. We thought of waiting after Nik had done celebrating it with her friends, but then Syu persuaded us and we ended up celebrating it together.

Yeah guess it guyss. Hehe. Ofcourse Z was there, too :)

No lah. I've gotten over him already. I am that type of person, yup. Today I am so head over heels for him, the next day I already forgot about my feelings.

But actually there's still a part of stubborn me that is still in love with him hshshshs. He is cute, so gorgeous he reminds me of Nam Do-san when he was wearing specs.

That's another thing. I realized I've been crushing on guys with spectacles all my life. Okay this one is funny.

It was good anyway. The celebration feels good. Although at first we were so awkward, but Wan (her schoolmate) is such a talky guy. He eased up the strange vibe, and we felt good.

We went back to our rooms around 1.30 omg that's quite long hours we spent.

Sidenote : I didn't even talk to Z that night. Didn't even dare to look him in the eye as i was afraid of menggelabah and being the stupid fool me again.

I swear he is so cute.

May God hide this blog from the people who knows me. I can't bear to face the embarassment. :P

 Bismillah. 

Aku tahu benda ni macam bodoh bunyinya. No offense, tapi memang bodoh. Masa aku tengah tulis benda ni, perasaan aku bercampur sebab rasa macam ehh bodohnya akuu hishh. HAISHHH

Okay. Jadi memandangkan aku mula belajar pada era covid, kitorang memang takde face-to-face class sampai sekarang. Just online classes je. Sebenarnya, kalau ikutkan perancangan awal uni, ada kelas face-to-face untuk lab programming pada Minggu Ke-6, tapi seminggu sebelum tu, ada sorang student yang disahkan positif covid. Jadi f2f tu terpaksa ditangguhkan. Lepas macam dah reda, covid pun berkurang, diorang plan nak buat f2f minggu keberapa entah. Tapii lepas tu ada staf pulak yang disahkan positif. Last-last, memang cancel terus kelas f2f tu hahahaha.

During classes, kitorang memang tak bukak kamera sebab mengambil kira internet connection kat tempat pelajar-pelajar lain dan pensyarah. Some of us stay at UTP, some went back to their home. Pensyarah semuanya kena WFH. Cuma untuk certain circumstances, contohnya test, kitorang akan bukak webcam dan masa tulah baru macam, "ooo ni ke classmate aku" "oo dia nilah ng ehh" gitchewww

nak dijadikan cerita, there's this one guy >,< ofc it's a guy duhh. his name issss ok im not gonna tell ya. Let's name him Z. Z ni selalu satu group dengan aku. Coincidence okayy sebab group tutor eng ngan dte project diassign oleh lecturer. Tapi group lab programming tu memang kebetulan sama sebab yang tu boleh pilih nak group apa. 

Start chat kat Whatsapp sebab nak tanya dia nama penuh apa. Aku dulu yang tanya, memandangkan aku setiausaha untuk projek DTE. Aku tanya dengan nada professional okayyyy (wkwkwkwkw) tapi dia balas memang sempoii gila hahahshshs macam dah kenal lama. First impression aku macam "eh hahaha budak ni mesti jenis suka hiburkan orang"

okay habis kat situ je conversation. Lepas tu aku perasan dalam grup kelas, dia selalu gak respon. Biasanya Shane (class rep) yang menghidupkan grup tu, then dia (Z) antara yang respon. 

Next conversation, masa lab 1 programming. Masa tu aku ada tanya kat grup tutor programming camne diorang buat, then dia jawab sebab dia punya soalan sama macam aku punya. Aku pun pm dia nak mintak tengok camne dia buat sebab output soalan tu panjang gila. Lagilah masa tu kena buat handwritten. Mampus aku nak salin output panjangg camtu.

Lepas tu kitorang memang sembang pasal lab (sebab dia bijakk gila TT). Ada one time tu kitorang sembang sampai around pukul 1 or 2 pagi. Sometimes ada jugak sembang pasal hal lain. Dia selalu online sekejap-sekejap sebab main game katanya.

Aku ni soft girl, tahu takk. Aku macam walaupun tak kenal, tapi macam hm kiyut la dia ni ehhehe. WHAT THE HECKK GURLL dont judge me i'm stuwwpid i know. 

Semalam, masa aku nak pergi dinner dengan rumet ngan kawan rumet aku, aku jumpa dia. No sebenarnya Z tu schoolmate dengan diorang, so diorang ajak Z lepak dinner sekali. So kitorang pun dinner lah satu meja.

JUST SO YOU KNOW, I AM A VERYYY SHYYYY INTROVERTTT GIRLLL. SO GUESS WHAT HAPPEN?

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nothing happens laa ahahhahha

okay i bought revive drink bottle sebab actually nak beli lassi, tapi ramai sangat orang beratur so beli air kat mart jelah. Aku makan roti nan cheese, and bila nak minum air, aku nak bukak la bottle cap tu tapi tak boleh sebab yelah tangan kotor kan. Mintak tolong member aku pun dia takleh buat ahhahshs. So penyelesaiannya aku pun bangun la nak pergi basuh tangan kat sinki. Bila balik kat meja tu, aku nak bukak cap ehh dah terbukak. Aku tak syak apa-apa, terus minum ehhee.

Sambil aku minum, barulah aku macam EHHH SAPE YANG TOLONG BUKAK NI? TAK MUNGKIN MEMBER AKU SEBAB TANGAN DIA KOTOR GAKK HISHSHSSHSH 

Z makan pakai sudu, so hmmm omggg butterflies running in my stomach!

Aku still simpan botol revive tu wkwkwk. It's just my assumption that it might be him yang tolong bukakkan cap. But I swear i dont wanna know the truth hehehe

On the way back to our room, rumet aku, Nik, cerita la yang Z ni ada girlfriend (WHATT?!!). "Actually dia takde girlfriend pun, cuma macam skandal la zaman sekolah dulu. Tapi Z tak deny pun hehehe"

Hati aku broken to pieces tau masa ni. 

Sampai kat bilik, dengan kuasa seorang perempuan, aku stalk ig mamat tu and the so-called-his-scandal. Okay she's so pretty and sporty. I know that Z dulu seorang ketua rumah sukan kat sekolah, that means he is sporty. The opposite of me. And that girl punya dp looks like she belongs to the sporty cool hot girls category. So glad dia tak belajar kat sini hshshsh. She currently studies at UPM, which is also top university, which means that she isn't just sporty. She is also brilliant at academics, which, again, i am not. That's like, a thousand reasons to like her and not to like me :'(

I slept early last nite bcs of the depression I brought upon myself. And today, I can't seem to get anything done. Aku luahkan kat twitter personal aku, watched movies and kdramas but all the time, i cant seem to focus. HIS NAME IS WRITTEN ON MY LOVELY BRAIN SO HOW DO I STAY FOCUSED?

Penat gila hidup gini. Rasanya ni first time aku broken, THIS BROKEN. Few months ago, i got my heart broke by my old crush (it was so messed up that time). He was getting married.oh god. Did i have too many crushes? hahahahah that one was an old one, so not valid. He was 4 years older than me, my senior back in high school. I dont wanna talk about him bcs he's already married. Plus, he didn't even knew my existance.

Anyway, I wrote this on my blog because I thought it would help me to clear up my mind. If not much, a little bit should be okay. I just hate feeling this way, because he obviously didnt feel the same about me. I apparently know he didnt even save my number (even after we talked quite a number of times). Not that i save his, anyway. I dont like saving people's numbers.

Looks like this entry is coming to an end. Please pray for my love life (wkwkw) and my study since next week will be our last week of attending classses. Then, there will be study week and after that, EA week. Our finals for this sem. Please pray for our success! Thankiuu!

 Bismillah.

PKPB in all states in Peninsular Malaysia was announced in the afternoon on 7th November. My friends and I discussed on whether or not we should go home. I called my mum and asked her if i should go home since we all know that PKPB would definitely be extended, not just for 4 weeks. We talked for some time and decided I was better off staying in campus for the sake of my extended assignment (EA. replacement for final). 

Syakir's mum told him to go home. That left only three of us (schoolmates). 

The next day, I wanted to clear up my mind. After subuh, my roommate and her friend and I went cycling near Oval Park (located beside the main gate). We wanted to watch sunrise, but couldn't since the sun was behind the cloudy clouds. anyway we had fun forgetting all the troubles Covid-19 had caused us. It was a nice, relaxing moment.

As we were on the way to our room, we received notifications coming from Outlook. We checked it up. It was an email from UTP Covid Response Team.

It stated in the e-mail to notify that UTP will be closed, and students are encouraged to go home, and if we decided to stay, it would be fine but room adjustments might be done. 

Panic. 

If we are encouraged, then that means situation is worse than what we expected and we definitely should go home.

Currently there's a lot of rising cases in Perak, and we aren't happy about it.

I decided to ask my friends again. The only thing that's bothering me from going home is no other than the assignments. Yes I could've Google Meet or whatsapp my friends to ask about study, but to what extent? The best thing to do when I couldn't understand a topic is to ask directly in front of their face.

Bus tickets are selling out. Time is running low. Panic panic panic.

I was so miserable. After cycling, I turned off my phone and slept. I didn't want anyone asking me anything. I didn't want to hear one more people saying he or she will go home. 

Once I has waken up, I turned on the phone and saw Wafiy's message. He said his mum told him to go home, and his dad will be picking him up. 

Ah. What a mess. 

I asked Ainul. She decided to stay. So I decided to stay, too.

We knew what it meant to stay for PKPB. It means more than 4 weeks. It means the probability of us not seeing our family until next year is high. It means we're gonna spend our sem break here, trapped in this place.

My housemates all decided to stay (again, for the sake of EA. Because studying alone is damn hard). Oh wait. Three people went home. Nad, tiyah and anas.

Since it's gonna be PKPB and it would be hard to go out, Mira and I went to Billion Supermarket after Zuhr and it was loaded with people. Not a surprise anyway. We bought groceries for five of us. Rice, flour, eggs, perencah Maggi cukup rasa, potatoes and onions and other stuffs to feed us for the next rough, upcoming days.

Yesterday was a total mess for me. I felt miserable all day. I couldn't focus on anything. I went cycling again in the afternoon after asr. But the weather was harsh yesterday. There was lightning and dark clouds and raining a little.

I went to Masjid An-Nuur for Maghrib and Isyak, since you know. It would be the last time before PKPB. And who knows when is it going to end?

Although I'm reallyyyyy sad, but i know this is what we called jihad (i think laa hahahaha). Jihad is tuntutan dalam agama, and Allah will definitely reward us for our jihad.

May Allah ease.

Bismillah.

Aku tak pernah tahu aku akan suka perkomputeran (programming). Sebelum ni aku ingat bidang ni adalah satu bidang yang kompleks, hanya orang genius dan betul-betul minat je boleh ngam dengan bidang ni.

Tapi macam mana kita nak tahu kita minat atau tak kalau kita tak pernah cuba?

hehe

Semester ni, aku ambil 4 subjek dan satu subjek kokurikulum. Jumlah : 5 subjek. Antaranya, Structured Algorithm and Programming. Awal-awal aku ingat susah gila tapi sebenarnya, walaupun susah, tapi benda ni sangat menarik. Setiap kali programming code berjaya run dengan baik, aku rasa macam nak makan aiskrim Magnum untuk celebrate. Rasa je la. Mampus bankrap aku kalau nak celebrate dengan Magnum. Kat sini mart ada jual aiskrim. Tapi biasalah, overpriced. 

Satu hal yang tak berubah, respect aku terhadap manusia bergelar programmer. Kerjaya. Software developer. App creator. Macam mana diorang boleh run code yang panjang berjela dengan berjaya? How do they live with those codes, like, the codes are crazy kut!! Soalan aku suku kertas A4 pun empat puluh kali aku run code, baru menjadi.

Mari aku cerita pasal programming. Aku belajar Python punya code. Untuk beginner, boleh belajar guna code Python. So far, lecturer aku cakap this one is the easiest if compared to other programming languages. I think I could agree.

To start, you can watch Youtube videos here :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBxCHonP6Ro&app=desktop

Link Python compiler online free  , you can try this. I like using this one :

https://repl.it/languages/python3

You can try download Pycharm, but I don't really like it because it's kinda messy. Repl.it is better.

Basically, it is something like this;

num1 = int(input("Enter number : "))

num2 = int(input("Enter number 2 : "))

if (num1 < num2) :

  print("Number ",num1, "is smaller than ", num2)

elif (num1 > num2) :

  print("Number ",num1, "is larger than ", num2)

else :

  print("Number ",num1, "is equal to ", num2)

In the future, everything will be about technology and digital industry. Malaysia has the best talents, but we fail to recognize the potential in our people. If we could develop these talents and make the best out of them, we can be one of the leading countries in technology. Trust me guys. We have the idea, we have the talent. The only thing we lack is the resource and full utilisation of the talents.

We couldn't appreciate enough of their talent. That's why young people prefers to work oversea. Their creativity and skills are much better appreciated. People recognize their talent, and give them opportunities to spread their wings.

I hope to see Malaysia's leading in the technology race in the future. 2020 is only a few months left, and there goes our Wawasan 2020. What a funny thing because what I expected 2020 to be is flying cars, robots as servants in the houses and buildings. But in reality, it is a horror. People losing jobs, their beloved ones, hungry kids on the street, parents gave up their baby as they cannot afford to raise them properly, people die of hunger, doctors and medical practitioners sacrificed their lives for patients.

Come on, Malaysia. We can do this. We can get rid of Covid-19 and get back on our feet. 

IR 4.0